Wednesday, February 23, 2011

The BIG Question

I feel like we're in a season of our life lately, where pretty much all of our friends are either having babies, had babies, are planning to have more babies, or asking us when we're having more babies. I feel like we're approaching the time when we are going to be making the decision to either have a third kiddo, or be complete with the 2 beautiful girls we've already been blessed with. I go back and forth all the time, sometimes I REALLY want another one, and then sometimes I'm terrified at the thought of being pregnant and going through that all over again. I'm done changing diapers, done breastfeeding, done with sleepless nights, done with toting around an infant carrier, done with buying diapers, baby clothes, etc... Part of me misses a FEW of those things though, I must be crazy. Its a tough choice to decide when you're done, and lets be honest, its not really up to us is it? Its up to God. Gerrad is pretty content with the 2 we have, but we both seem to go back and forth, and always leave it at 'maybe.' Maybe one day we'll feel called to have another sweet babe, but maybe we won't, and either would be OK with me!

I feel like as soon as I feel content, then I think about the future, and when the kids grow up, and we have holiday get togethers and I always see a BIG family. I feel like I have so much love to give. Being a mom is truly the greatest joy that I have ever experienced, definitely life altering, for the better. I feel like its what I was born to do! For now we'll stay in our place of 'maybe' and just take it one day at a time.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."  Jeremiah 29:11

A friend of mine posted this to her blog a while ago, and I just fell in love with it. I think to myself, what would my sign say? Looking back on the time before I became a mother, I was still a child myself, so I'm not sure that my sign would be that insightful had you asked me then. Thinking about it now, I think my sign would read 'You will finally know what TRUE love is.'





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12 comments:

Ashley said...

You are such a great mom Molly!!! I have such a great time loving on your girls....(and wouldn't mind snuggling with a new baby hall!) I hope that when I become a mom someday I can do it all like you do! I have some great mom's in my life to look up to. Love you girl!

Michelle said...

I love how you are just leaving it all up to God! You seem to be such a great mom and I'm sure any babe is lucky to have you!

Kelly said...

Awww, this was too precious. I can't wait until we're at the point where we're making the FIRST BIG decision in our marriage :-) I can't even imagine the back and forth that you go through! You feel established in your family and the thought of shaking it up a bit is scary... yet babies are SOOO much fun! My sis and I were 8 years apart; I think both girls would be SUCH fabulous older sisters :-D I love "your sign" Can't wait until I can feel that someday too!

Emily said...

What a great way to look at it! Leaving it up to God is really the best and you're doing that. I wish it was as easy as you make it sound!

Neely said...

I really like this post a lot!

Candice Pair said...

I always think about that, too...when will I know that we're "done?" I think for most women, there will alway be a small part of you that longs for another baby, and that regrets that they didn't have "just one more." My advise is to pray about it and ask for a peace about your decision :)

Rebekah said...

You are so sweet and you are a wonderful mom! I love that you're leaving it up to Him. He knows exactly how things will go.

MrsV said...

Love this post! I can't wait to see what becomes of this question for your family! I still struggle with this question, and I know in my heart we are DONE! Creating life, and bringing life in to the world is tne most amazing thing God allows. It's hard to not want to experience that a million times over!
Ask and it shall be given you, seek and ye shall find, knock and it shall be opened unto you.
(Luke 11:9)

Caroline said...

You are such a great woman, wife and mother. I know God will show you the right direction in His time. Thanks for being there for me today!! :)

Heather said...

I hadn't seen this video and I LOVE it! Made me cry! Now I am thinking about what my sign would say. I am thinking....."THIS is "the plans God had for you..." (Jer 29:11)

PrettyinPink said...

That was a great video!! I loved the "google doesn't have kids" haha!! It makes me nervous to have children still, but at the same time it makes me SO excited!! One day!

ps. The Penelope necklace is awesome! You might also look into getting the charm necklace with the "mom" charm and birthstone of your two girls! I love the long 32" length!

Lori said...

This is a great post. I am somewhat in the same boat, except I only have one! Your little girls are ADORABLE. And I read and re-read that scripture when I was PG with my little girl.

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